Exhale

What if the end was upon you?  What would you do in what could possibly be the last hour of your Life?  Would you do all you could to save yourself, and maybe elude death for another day?  Or would you lay down your life to ensure others don't suffer the same fate?  Would you want to be remembered in your ageless slumber  as a savior, to be forever loved for paying the ultimate price?  Or would you rather live in Oblivion knowing that you could have done something to save those you care most about.  YOU have a choice: Die whole, die knowing that the ones you love can close their eyes, and Sleep, knowing harm will not reach them because of your sacrifice.  :Die empty and broken, knowing that you sacrificed it All to see days without meaning nor end.  To die knowing a piece of you is in eternal repose.  This is certain Oblivion.  I often ponder this question.  In fact, the reason I am writing this post is because, after an uncertain number of years, I have finally found my answer.  If I had to end myself to ensure My loved ones could see even just one more sunrise, I would.  The harder question to answer is, would you give yourself up for a complete stranger.   Honestly that's one I can not yet answer.  So I’ll leave the answer for when the Question is asked.  Knowledge Is life but brings you closer to death.  So for now, I think I can wait for the answer to this Question.  For now, I know this, Life is beautiful.  Preserve it, let it flourish, and you may find your key to happiness.

Life

Can a bullet really fix it all?

The Fracture

All my life I have been building myself up on a skyscraper.  I was up there!  UP.  With the birds around me, and the clouds surrounding.  The sun so blindingly close, yet too far to grasp.  I was up.  Up so high, the pages in these Stories were taunting paper cuts.  I'm afraid of heights, so why am I up here?  A foolish question to ask myself.  But I guess only a Fool could have noticed something as unique as You.  It was like any other day occupying my high rise, observing Life as it usually comes to me, when you hit me like an earthquake.  You shook my lifelong refuge to its very foundation.  My once steady perch dissolved to dust in a matter of seconds, and I felt my heart heave as I plunged through Nothingness.  It was like chugging a six pack of Red Bull.  My feet lost ground and I flew for the first time of my life!  I felt the soft caress of Music in my soul, playing like the kings symphony. . .  As I sank into uncertain Oblivion I began to wonder, how long will I fall before you catch me?  Is this all just a dream, or has reality hit the wall?  I can't say.  All  I know is, I continue to Fall. . . that's it.  The rest is just a Fading stain on my memory. Life is like a mirage, so surreal, is it Fake or is it Real?  I'm a thirsty, weary man from building this now shattered reality.  Are You my water, my salvation?  Or my doomed, never ending destination?  This cloud cover leaves me, my last refuge.  The time for Question is over. . . I've fallen too far.  Now the ground is prominent, like a Scar.  WHY?  Why am I still falling?  The Birds whisper fleeting answers. 
Y  o  u   h  a  v  e   b  e  e  n   U  s  e  d. . . 

LOVE?

Love is something that happens in the blink of an eye.  It happens when you least expect it, and completely blows you away.  It has the has the power to tear you apart, or make you strive to be the best person you can be.  It empowers and destroys in seconds, yet can take a lifetime to find.  Love is completely unique to every individual, yet works in the same mysterious ways.  Everyone wonders what love is, philosophers have tried to define it and have ultimately failed, every time.  I think anyone can describe what it does and doesn't do.  But no individual knows what Love IS.  The only thing I can compare it to that fully describes it, is something that I can't fully describe.  Music.  Music is something that can evoke any emotion.  Music isn't bound by language, culture, race.  It's something truly divine that anyone and everyone can understand and enjoy.  It is one of those instinctual things that has been there ever since we can remember.  It's something we have all experienced and enjoy.  Love is what gives Life a purpose.  It gives Life a destination.  And although I'm not a very religious person, I can say these words in confidence.  Love is one of the few unshakable gifts given to mankind by God.